comming clean

ive relized i no longer wannuh live a lie,

wells the names rachel im 16 years old but as every one else noes im 17
ummm i grew up in sunset park no fancy home no realy expensive crib
ummm im 161 or 165 pounds which is (OVER WEIGHT] for my age...
i never had a real best friend, allot of ppl don't like me or how i act
ummm somtimes i tell people im fresh but realy i dont come close
realy half my sneakers were given to me or borrowed from my friends
same goes with my clothes some are mine some borrowed sum bought
ummm i don't find myself attracktive &+ i question how my bf dose or dose he ??
for all those ppl who think im a jr in high schoo0l u dont even noe the half of it
ummm i question if ppl take me serously,but funny thing i dont take myself serously
i lie to almost every one accept my boy friend he makes me wannuh be honest
ummm im a realy jelous person i hate when any girl other then his family talks to him
i have trust issues i dont trust my own family nor my friends or anyone else besides him
ummm i feel the need to blurt secrets out weather there mine or someone elses...
i have stole b4 im not an angel but never from sum1 i care about
ummm i honestly think my bf is no longer in love with me &+ i feel its my fault.
my family isnt whole infact i don't even call it family to start with
ummm most ppl judge me and talk allot of shit about me behind and in front of my baqq
i judge and talk about every person i meet im a critic & its not something im proud of
ummm every girl on the street i c that idk i grill because i hate girls
i sometimes lie to make my life sound good even tho i shouldn't
im normal i fart i poop i pee i burp its all normal
i dont shower every day, dont wash my hair ere day
i pick my boogers nd sometimes eat them





WELL I KNO I MISSED SOME THINGS BUT WHEN I REMEMBER THEM ILLE WRITE A PART 2 TO THIS.......